Shooting for the Moon: Chapter 0 Disclaimer: I do not claim ownership of Sailor Moon or anything that comprises it. This is a non-profit story written solely for my own enjoyment and that of anyone who wishes to read it. The story and original characters are mine. Please don't use them without permission. Story notes: This is the sequel to my previous fan-fiction Fallen Stars. If you haven't read that then please do so before starting in on this story, because it won't make the slightest bit of sense unless you know what has brought the characters to this point. It's all pretty convoluted stuff! Oh, and as before it will be shoujo-ai flavoured. *** Shooting for the Moon - A Sailor Moon Fan-Fiction by Nutzoide - Chapter 0: Home Sweet Tokyo! A Silent Return for the Dispossessed Girls. Minako blinked, staring up at a night sky that had been filled with an early afternoon sun only moments ago. She groaned loudly, wondering why she hurt. There didn't seem to be a single muscle in her body that didn't ache, and her head throbbed painfully. She must have hit it when she landed. Across from her she heard Rei's voice, grousing as usual. "I forgot how much that sucked the first time around." Minako blinked away the last of the cartoon stars that were playing in front of her eyes and sat up. When she finally got her eyes to focus she could see Rei and Makoto lying in a heap on the grass just a few feet away. They were both looking rather relieved though. It must have been nice, having each other to break their falls. But why were they looking so annoyed at her? "Idiot! Get out of the way!" Rei yelled at her. "Before..." Ahh, so that was it, Minako thought. It was just a shame that she hadn't twigged it for herself before Ami and Haruka were catapulted into her. The three of them collided in a ball of flailing limbs and Minako found herself buried under her friends. "Ouuuch..." "Ohhhh..." Ami moaned, trying to remember how to pick herself up. "S-sorry Minako-chan... Ow..." Minako just groaned some more. "Please..." she begged, twitching slightly, "Haruka-san... you're heavy..." Haruka, propped upside down on Minako's stomach, just huffed. "What exactly are you insinuating?" she asked, wishing Ami would move her bag enough to let her free. After landing at such an angle Haruka was surprised that she hadn't broken something. "I did warn you," Rei said as she watched the three of them disentangle themselves. Minako glared at her as soon as she had managed to sit up again. "What warning? You only just finished calling me names when they hit me!" "Hey," Rei shot back, turning away with a huff, "we had the presence of mind to move before you fell on us." Then Makoto's voice broke through the fledgling argument. A quiet, awe-filled voice. "Uhh, guys? Look." The others all blinked and followed her gaze, just in time to see the last of the flames boil away into the cool night air. What was left of the portal, the liquid disk of non-space that they had walked through to get there, spilled out of its fading confines and into the air, where it was absorbed like water disappearing into a sponge. "That's it," Makoto said, placing her hand over Rei's, as if affirming their success. "We're home." It was only then that the others actually took the time to look around them. The night wasn't the deep blackness they had become used to in that strange and fantastic world. The street lights and the shine from the buildings filled the air with a warm, artificial glow. Even sitting in the park they could see the pathways lit up for those wanting to stroll during the midnight hours. Juuban park, looking just the way they remembered it. They sat in the exact same spot from where their enemy had cast them out of their world over two months ago. The place was empty now, but maybe that was just as well. It would have been awkward to explain why the five of them had just appeared out of thin air. Minako felt invigorated, knowing where they were now. After all this time she was home. She threw up her arms with a whoop, her bruises suddenly forgotten. "Wa-hoooooo! We made it! Those crazy old guys did it! Ha-haa!" Her smile lit up her face and she staggered to her feet, only to twirl herself around in the moonlight like a giddy schoolgirl before flopping back onto the grass, her hair escaping from its netting and fanning out majestically beneath her. "Hee hee, I'm going to be so sore," she giggled, while the others just watched her antics with their own inner glows of happiness. Haruka stretched herself out and got to her feet, massaging her abused neck even as she smiled. "I wonder what the date is," she said, pondering the question to herself. They had been away for what had seemed to be a little over two months, but who knew how that related to the time that had passed back there in Tokyo. Time had passed, that much was obvious seeing that the park was empty and it was well into the night, but by how much? In what direction even? And more importantly to Haruka, what had happened during that time? Ami had to mirror those thoughts. What had her mother done in her absence? Did she think that she was dead? She hoped that whatever the case was, it hadn't affected her mother's work. And Usagi; what had she thought when they had been cast out of their world, and right in front of her too? It was a lot to think about when they had only just got back. "You guys stay put," Ami said, following Haruka in getting to her unsteady feet. "I'll find a newspaper." "Roger!" Minako replied from the grass, giving her a playful thumbs up. Right then, unlike the others, Minako didn't want to think about the difficult stuff. She just wanted to enjoy the moment. She had put on a brave face as they had all waited for the portal to appear in that world of feudal fantasy, but in truth her insides had been knotted up. The nagging fear Haruka had brought up had played on her mind; that the burning gateway might not have got them where they had wanted to go. Now it was all okay and she could let herself go, if only for a short while. Whatever happened next would happen regardless of whether she worried or not, so what was the point? Her joyful respite was short lived though, and Ami soon returned with an up-to-date paper. It seemed as though time had passed in Tokyo just as it had in the land of Seiji, and the unpleasant trips from one world to the other hadn't interfered with the matter of when they had appeared. They had been gone for about two months in Tokyo as well, and the paper even mentioned the Sailor Senshi, as well as their reticence to give anyone any information on how they were coping having lost a full half of their women. Not that they had ever spoken to the press beforehand either. Why would this have changed things? So, Usagi and the others had won after all it seemed, but their absence had been very obvious. No doubt the journalists would have a similar field day with their return. "And it means summer is nearly here!" Ami worried. "We have to catch up on all our work! My medicine exams must be coming up soon!" Once they had finished reading Rei sighed, and detached herself from Makoto's arm. "I guess I'd better go home. I want to see Grandpa again. I... I need to tell him what I've done." Makoto shook her head. "What *we've* done," she amended, giving Rei's hand a gentle squeeze. "Do you want me to come with you?" Rei smiled at her with clear, emotional eyes, but she still declined. "Yes, but I think I have to do this on my own. Besides, he's old. Having 'us' on top of everything might give him a heart attack!" Makoto deflated a little but she understood. "Okay. I suppose I'd better make sure my landlord hasn't sold my apartment anyway!" They all had homes to go to after all, so after a round of hugs and goodbyes they began to wander off into the night. However, as they did Haruka noticed that Minako didn't follow their lead. She just lay on the grass, looking thoughtfully up at what stars they could see through the smattering of cloud and the glow of the artificial lights. A glow that struck them both as rather a shame. Nights in Seiji had been the deepest black, and in turn the stars had held a sense of power as they hung in the sky. "Minako-chan? What's up?" Haruka finally asked. "I'd have thought you would want to see your parents again after all this. And Artemis." Minako nodded. "Yeah," she replied, digging through her large bag, "I do. But Artemis will just grill me for information once he's finished pawing at me, and my Mum and Dad will be jumping off the ceiling at me for running away like this!" She grinned, producing her cell phone. "You know how parents are, right? I think a warning call is in order before the flan hits the... err... the fan." Haruka nodded with a chuckle. For her, parental tempers were a distant and unpleasant memory, but Minako was Minako and her mangled sayings could help anyone forget their worries. "I get you. Take care then." Minako's grin faded into a simple, calm smile. "Thanks. Give my love to Michiru-san and Hotaru-chan." Haruka nodded with a grin of her own. "And Setsuna?" Minako giggled at the thought of Setsuna being upset for being left out. "If she cares then I bet she knows already!" Then, after Haruka had left, Minako sat up in the grass with her bag in her lap, and dialled for home. It took an age - it was past midnight after all - but her mother finally picked up. Even if she was annoyed at being woken it was still so good to hear her voice, and Minako found herself with a few happy tears in her eyes. "Hi Mum. It's me." *** Rei had been given a lot to think about during her visit to Seiji. Now that she was alone - properly alone for the first time in a long while - she found that, whether she wanted to or not, some long overdue thinking had begun. It was a long walk back to her shrine after all. For years now she had been so sure of what she wanted out of life, and so sure of who she was. By day she was a student of reasonable grades, working for her keep with her grandfather as a shrine maiden. Those activities kept her busy and limited the time she could relax with the other girls, but they were rewarding as well. Her dreams of stardom, unlike Minako's, had been tempered as she had grown up, and now she sang just for her own pleasure - and that of anyone who wanted to listen of course. It had depressed her when the talent scouts had passed her by, but she had come to find a growing satisfaction in preparing to take over from her grandfather. And by night, or whenever it was needed really, she was Sailor Mars, defender of love, justice and righteousness. She would protect the innocent and burn away the evils that threatened the peaceful land of Japan, and the peaceful planet of Earth. Then, all of a sudden, she was the one wielding the powers of evil, even if they had been in a good cause. Every dream of hers had been ridiculed and pulled apart from inside her own mind. She had killed the innocent, because otherwise the innocent would have killed her and her friends. She had been forced to see that in order for her to run the shrine, her grandfather would have to die. He was old, she had known he could not live forever, but she didn't want to have to face up to it yet. Not when the old letch still had the time and the energy to keep going. He was all she had left of her family now. And likewise, in order for Crystal Tokyo to be built, the old Tokyo - her home - would have to die. Maybe it would be in a few years, or maybe in a few hundred, but it would happen. It had to. Rei hated it, but maybe that was how Sailor Pluto was forced to think, she mused in her morbid little cloud. The 'Outers' had always said that the end justified the means. Did that mean that they would have to fail to protect the world, or just stand back and let it crumble, in order for the future to be born? Was that just? Could she stand by and let people suffer, so that a greater number did not have to? She knew the answer to that, because she already had. Masquerading as the Seraphi, they had trampled on the lives of Seiji's nobility in order that the common people might live better lives. It was a good cause, she knew they had done the right thing, but there would be noblemen that suffered because of it. There had been soldiers who had died because of it. At her hands. Their hands. Rei fought back her encroaching sobs. Ami and Minako had killed men as well, and Haruka and Makoto had crippled others. They had borne the weight of it, so Rei forced herself to be strong. She would bear it too. They had not had a choice after all. And from there she found the flip side. She had found happiness in Seiji too. She had found Makoto, not as the friend she had treasured for so long, but as something more. Somehow, as Rei had wallowed in her own inability to cope with her literal inner demon, Makoto had come to her rescue, and somewhere down the line Makoto had come to love her. Rei had been incredulous, but she had also put aside her girlish need for romance for far too long. And, in humouring her athletic friend, she had come to share Makoto's feelings. In such a short space of time her ideas for the future had seen Makoto there to meet her at the shrine after her day's work. It wasn't a pinkly romantic fantasy, but just a nice warming thought that she found herself unable to let go of, even if she had wanted to. She did not know how Makoto had come to love her, but looking at it now, and without the constant demonic voice inside her head, she really did know that she had fallen in love too. And then, making her way up the steps to the shrine, her mood rocking like a seesaw, she would be brought back to her more immediate worries. She could keep her secrets from Usagi - she didn't think she could bear the look of disappointment in the girl's eyes if she knew the whole truth - but she could not keep them from her grandfather. He was a mad old pervert, but behind his eccentricities he was the wisest and most perceptive person Rei knew. He would be able to see right through any act that she put on, so she would tell him everything. Of course, as it turned out, it wasn't quite that simple. It was gone midnight when she had got home after all, and the old man was fast asleep. Rei just smiled a sad smile as she watched him. 'I'm sorry Grandpa,' she thought, 'I've let us both down. Please forgive me.' Of course, he would. He would want to know that what she had done had been justified, and he would be happy not to hear any more about it. She had suffered enough for her sins already. At least, that was what she wanted to believe. *** Makoto breathed a sigh of relief when her key slid scratchily into the lock on her apartment door and turned with such a familiar click. Given the time that had passed she had worried that her landlord might have decided to rent the place out on the assumption that she wasn't coming back. She had already been close to 'rent day' when she had disappeared, and she wasn't in the least bit surprised when she found herself wading through two month's worth of post in the entryway. She gave herself enough time to get inside and take off her shoes before scooping up all the envelopes and taking them out to her living room, to be deposited on the table there. Then she watched in horror as a plume of dust rose up from the table as the pile of unopened papers disturbed it. Living alone had its drawbacks, and Makoto sighed heavily before giving a small sneeze. She really didn't want to have to clean just then. If nothing else she wanted to try and get some sleep. She wasn't in the least bit tired, but she knew that she would soon end up with the closest thing to jet lag that she would ever experience. Ignoring the thin film of dust that had settled over everything she flopped down onto her settee, and held her breath until the resulting cloud had settled. 'I'll have to spend tomorrow cleaning,' she thought to herself with a hint of annoyance. She guessed it had been too much to hope for just to return and bask in the glow of being back in her own home. But then, that glow wasn't as strong as she had thought it would be. As she sat, staring at the ceiling, it struck her how silent the place seemed. Unnaturally silent, save for the occasional car that passed outside. Had it always been that quiet? The lack of noise was only part of it though, she realised. She was alone, and she hadn't felt that way since... since before her nomadic foster family had picked her up in Seiji. After that she had always had someone around her, day or night. She had always shared a room or a tent for the night. Even as a prisoner, locked away in her own private cell-coach there had been the constant milling of the guards. Now, for the first time in she didn't know how long, Makoto began to feel a pang of loneliness. She missed the others. More to the point, she missed Rei. 'No,' she told herself, shaking her head and getting to her feet to put on a CD. 'That's not the way to think.' If that was the worst of it for her, then what was she complaining about? She had always lived alone. She had better things to think about, like being glad that they were all back home. That Rei didn't have to live with a demonette inside her any more. That Ami, Minako and Haruka could see their families again. That she could go and see Rei again tomorrow, or any time she liked. That she, Kino Makoto, was in love! That brought a guiltily giddy smile to her face. Despite everything, despite herself and her stupid crushes and her stupid body, someone could actually love her back. She had tried so hard and for so long, and she had finally found what she had been looking for, and that person had been right under her nose all along. But still, that didn't solve her immediate problem. The cleaning could wait, as could the post. The majority of that would be an unmanageable number of bills anyway, and since she would have undoubtedly lost her part time job after two months in another world her savings fund would end up taking a nasty hit. There wasn't any point in dwelling on it. It was inevitable anyway. No, what she could do was stop herself wallowing in her sudden solitude. The others all had people to return to, so they would all be pre-occupied tonight, but Usagi deserved to know they were back. It was the middle of the night, but if one of them didn't call as soon as possible they would never hear the end of it! She could just imagine Usagi's pretty face contorted into a groggy scowl while she fumbled for the phone, and Makoto waited patiently as the ringing tone repeated itself. Then the tone cut out and a scratchy, feminine voice mumbled its way out of the earpiece. "Chiba residence. It's late. Go to bed already." Makoto giggled, happy beyond words to hear that voice. "Hi Usagi- chan, I'm sorry. I just wanted to tell you that we're back. It's Makoto." Then Makoto found herself with the phone at arm's length as Usagi tried to deafen her with her ecstatic replies. Mamoru had to take the phone off her before Makoto could get a full sentence in. She had to laugh. It was good to be back. *** Ami found her fingers trembling as she tried to fish her keys out from the depths of her travelling bag. She had not even managed to get into her mother's condominium yet and her imagination was already running riot. She both hoped her mother would be at home and, at the same time, hoped that the large, spacious apartment would be empty, as it so often was when she arrived back from her classes. The desire to hug her mother - to assure her that she was back and that she was okay - was overpowering. And, to do that, her mother would have to be giving up her work, and Ami would have to wait until at least two in the morning until her mother's afternoon-to-evening shift was over. Ami smiled to herself as her fingers finally worked and her key slid into the lock with a click. She hoped that the latter was the case. It was already late after all, so she wouldn't have long to wait. It was almost with a sigh of relief that she found the apartment shrouded in darkness, and she slipped off her shoes before turning the lights on. "I'm home," she whispered to herself. That thought made her smile. She was home. Away from the supposedly heroic madness of Seiji, away from the things they had done there, and back to her normal life. A life where she could study properly, with her friends. A life where she could forget these last few months. Of course, she wouldn't forget them, but no-one else had to know. They would be her happy memories. Her painful memories. Her memories of things that she should never have done. Haruka, Rei, Makoto and Minako would let her pretend, the same way that she would let them pretend. Those things didn't matter now. They had normal lives to get on with. She didn't tempt fate by thinking too hard about it. Instead she headed for her room. She found herself giggling when she saw the plaque on the door, emblazed with her name. It seemed like such a silly thing now, but she felt a warm glow in her chest. It was something that was hers, and had been for as long as she had lived. And inside her room remained untouched. Her bed was made ready for her, her books lay where she had left them, and only the lack of dust showed that anyone had been in since she had been gone. Slowly Ami stepped in and closed the door behind her, immersing herself in the feeling of her own room again. She changed out of the old school uniform she had worn and set it out to wash, grateful that she had such an unnatural attraction to the outfit. She hadn't needed to wear one since enrolling at university, but she still kept all her uniforms. She couldn't begin to think how lucky she had been to have it with her when they had been attacked and sent to Seiji. It was a little too small for her now, but it had comforted her when she had been homesick. She slipped a night dress on and padded back out into the apartment proper. She really wasn't tired, it was only mid-afternoon for her after all, so it would not be a chore to wait for her mother to return. Of course, there was that little, nagging doubt. What if her mother wouldn't return? What if something had happened since she had last been there? What if she had had to go away? 'No,' she thought, 'don't think like that. My key worked, so she must still be here.' And what if she didn't want a daughter that had killed a man? That had shot a crossbow into his chest and taken his life. What if she didn't want a daughter who would steal someone's lover for herself? "No!" Ami shouted into the silent, empty room. "It wasn't like that." She took a deep breath and composed herself, forcing back whatever tears had been threatening to spoil her return. It didn't matter what had happened. It didn't matter how she felt. They were secrets that she would bury. She would keep her happy memories, and everything else was history. She found herself smiling again. They had done more than enough good, both for the land of Seiji and for each other, to make up for anything else that had happened. It was only when she went to fetch herself a drink, something to calm her excited nerves, that she saw the note. It was written in her mother's neat, exacting script, but it was creased and the edges were distressed. As if it had been read and worried over many times. 'My Dearest Ami, 'I hope that you will somehow find yourself reading this. I don't know when that might be, or how or why you might come back, but I will not give up hope that you will. People have told me all sorts of things about why you have gone, and I don't know what to believe now. 'But, if you aren't going to stay, then please at least leave me some kind of message. I need to know that you are well, and happy. If it was me that drove you away then I am sorry. I know I have been hard on you, and have never given you the kind of attention that you deserved. I know you blame me for your father leaving us. Just know that I love you more than anything else in this world, and that if you ever need anything then I will do what I can to provide it for you. 'I won't believe that you were caught up in the battles of the Sailor Senshi. I just can't, no matter what they all say. But if you were, then I hope you have found peace. 'I am only sorry I am not there to welcome you home. If you have returned for good, I don't need to know why, but I will make time to hear you if you need to talk. That I promise. 'Also, please forgive me if I do something rash. It is only because I am so worried for you. 'I will always love you, 'Mother Ami stood staring at the note for a long time, tears coursing down her face. Had her mother really believed that she would want to run away? But then, what else could she think? She had been gone for so long without so much as a goodbye. Ami had hoped the apartment would be empty, but right then she wanted someone, anyone, to be there with her. But now she couldn't even call anyone. She wanted to hear Makoto's soothing voice on the other end of the telephone so badly, just like it used to be when they each needed someone else around. She knew it was selfish, but she had to try. However, surely Makoto had her own problems right now, and that thought was confirmed when all Ami could get was the busy tone. She forced herself to put the phone down. At least Makoto was being pro- active. She clutched the letter to her chest and found herself crouching down to the floor as she began to cry in earnest. After everything she must have put her mother through, and after everything she had done since then, how did she even deserve to come home? "I'm sorry Mother," she wept into the creased paper. "I'm so sorry!" *** Haruka really couldn't believe it. Of all the times she could have forgotten her keys, it had to be the one afternoon that she ended up being banished to another world. So much for her smooth entrance. She just stood on the doorstep of the house she shared with the other 'Outer' Senshi and rang the door bell. There weren't words for how badly she had missed them. Her strong, boyish facade covered a much more complex individual, and much of that outer strength had come out of having Michiru there with her. When they were together Haruka no longer felt the need to be the rude, standoffish girl she had been in her earlier years. And then like that they had been taken from her. She had been left to re-learn that air of calm, playful stylishness that Michiru had nurtured within her. She had come to see how little life she had outside their family together, and how much she now needed someone there with her. She had lost her love in the Marine Cathedral, and they had lost each other as Galaxia had cut them down for their arrogance. For people she held so dear, Haruka now saw all too well how incapable she was of keeping them safe and close to her. But then, all soldiers faced those fears, didn't they? And she had been lucky to have so many second chances. Haruka smiled at those words as they popped into her head. They would have suited Minako very well. Eventually the door did open, and Haruka found herself staring into the most beautiful pair of stunned, aquamarine eyes. Her heart leapt into her throat, but she didn't let it show. She just put on her smoothest smile. "I'm home." The next thing that she knew was Michiru's head buried in her wrinkled shirt as her lover almost tackled her off her feet. "You're alive!" Michiru sobbed hysterically as she tried to squeeze the life out of her prodigal girlfriend. Then in almost the same instant she broke their embrace and Haruka saw the daggers in her teary eyes. "Where have you been all this time! Why couldn't you tell us you were alright?! After all this time..." Haruka was taken aback by the outburst, but it was hardly unexpected. Her more pressing concern was the way Michiru began to sway as she stood in the doorway. In one deft move Haruka took her in her arms before her girlfriend's legs could give out, and she ran a hand down Michiru's cheek as the young musician's eyes fluttered. "Hey now," Haruka admonished gently, the pair of them gazing fondly at each other, "let's not swoon until we're both inside." Michiru just nodded, trying not to faint and wrapping her arm around Haruka's neck. "I thought you were dead," she whispered with a grave air before she pulled Haruka to her in a long, loving kiss. One that had been far too long in coming for them both. Haruka just nodded. Right now, filled with so much relief at being able to hold Michiru in her arms again, the rest of the world might not even have existed. "Forgive me?" Michiru gave her a smirk. "Always Haruka." Haruka never really knew what to make of those smirks, besides that Michiru was likely to be in an impishly playful mood, and at the strangest times too, but they were always a good sign. She would want answers and stories eventually, Haruka knew, but right now the fact that they were together again would be enough. Michiru managed to find her feet and press Haruka to herself as they shared another, passionate kiss. A kiss that held the promise of much more to come. "Always." *** To Be Continued... *** Author's note: Please send any comments and constructive criticism to: nutzoide@nutzoide.net They are always greatly appreciated, and there is no better reward for a writer than to hear back from the readers. Many thanks to Richard King for his proofreading assistance. (c) Nutzoide 2007 http://www.nutzoide.net